(Smug smile)
No matter how much I try to avoid upsetting situations, they come without notice
My sister and I swore that we would never go back to Switzerland or Paris, but here I am;;
On my way to meet a friend!
I have already decided which perfume to buy for my dad!
I can't believe it..
(Pose that no one asked)
Germ morning~
(Smug smile)
I just got up
Today is the weekend
Today I’m incredibly..
Swollen hehe~
I have the hungover swollen face right now
Gosh.. It's already around 1 o'clock now~
I drank yesterday and the day before yesterday, 3 days ago
(@Dad: Call me) Yes, I drank a lot. Well, when I say a lot
I drank around two glasses of wine and got drunk
I have a really bad hangover right now
I just can't wash my hair today
(@Destiny: When do you ever wash your hair?) I’m so hungover there is no way I’m going to wash my hair
But the reason I put on makeup is because I ordered ramen now
(Salivating)
I got ready while waiting for my food because seriously when I'm at home,
You see this is why I don't like alcohol as much
It's so much harder the next day
Hmm~ And that’s not good
And because I really have to get my stuff done today
(It got cut while I was trying to say 'I'm not even human") If I don't do it now, I'm not even...
She pretty~ She really pretty~
Let me pour the broth
I came to do pilates~
After class, the instructor told me to do more stretching, so that's what I'm doing
Working at home not exercising had me gained weight so quickly
I’m on my way to get the Kardashian’s butts and thighs
Just love how I can clear my mind when I do Pilates~
Trying to do some ab exercises somehow..haha
I came to get my nails done~
The gel nail colors here are so pretty..~!
Actually, this day wasn't the best day...
(I want to talk quietly, so I reduced the font size..haha)
So, as soon as I arrived at the nail shop, my spot was the only area that was so depressing...hahaha
No matter how much I try to avoid upsetting situations, they come without notice
Acting like I have hay fever and wiping away my tears..
HAHAHAHAHA
The nails turned out really pretty though
And the weather is so nice~ lol God damn it!
This vlog covers content from a few months ago to the recent past, so there's a long gap
The things that made me sad at that time don't seem like a big deal now!!
I was just about to pop(?) open my packages~
(Isoi has been taking care of me since our collab 3 years ago) Isoi sent me these gifts again
I get gifts from brands thanks to my Destiny who watches my videos <3
Following the lip balm I received last time, I also got another gift from Tocobo!
(The Tocobo tone-up sunscreen is crazy!... It became my fav (Bought it with my own money) I've been really enjoying the lip balm they sent me last time. Let me open this one as well
With the Godiva I got as a gift and this Organacell
Oganacell peptide cream is a perfect recovery cream for skin problems! (Been buying it with my own money for some years since receiving it as a gift from the brand)
Came to the district office as soon as I got up~
Following the emergency passport issuance last time, I came to get my passport reissued!
For our next family trip, we're planning to go to Switzerland and Paris
My sister and I swore that we would never go back to Switzerland or Paris, but here I am;;
It came out a week earlier than the scheduled date!
Can pick it up on behalf of the person / Mail pickup available!!
I got my passport
I'm feeling so tired because I drank too much yesterday
HAHAHAHA I'm dying here~
When you're getting your passport reissued, you must bring the old one with you
On my way to meet a friend!
Just going to have a light beer with my friend :) Yeah I'm sure~
On my way to Mullae!!
Oh my my hun, you were using KE(Kieun) card?
Second round baby hehe
Omg my obsessive fan~~XD
I'm about to sleep, but how cute is my Kiwi :D
This is... the orthopedic office...
I skipped lunch and came to see an orthopedist
Now I'm unable to bend my back to wash my hair...
My tutor, who's an orthopedist, told me to take painkillers if my back hurts
and told me that it's good in I take it consistently so I came to just get some pills..
But I got an X-ray and was diagnosed with herniated disk... (super shocked..)
When I sit for more than 20 min at work, it hurts so much that I feel like screaming. So I head to the restroom if that happens...
The doctor said that this is 'severe pain caused by a herniated disk'..
After a huge shock from seeing the results, I'm now receiving physical therapy...HAHAHAHA
I can't believe it...
And some other treatment...
I was in so much pain that I wonder 'what more pain is there, if this wasn't a herniated disc..?'
Recently, I..
(Even at this time trying to explain the situation hehe) My back hurt badly, but the pain was not just like
'wow, my back hurts'
But it was like, I screamed in pain after sitting more than 5 minutes
It hurt a lot even when lying down or when I'm sitting
(I wish I had gone to the hospital earlier, not minding the work...) It really hurt a lot, so I'm quite shocked right now
(It got worse when I sat for like 10 to 12 hrs for work at the beginning of the year) I endured it for almost 6 months thinking it wouldn't be the herniated disk
The doctor told me to stop all the exercises, including Pilates
It's too shocking, so I just canceled Pilates class for this week
There's an airwrap in the changing room?! Is this some sort of employee benefit for this orthopedic clinic?
Sometimes, when it's too intense, I take a taxi to commute to work...
Germ~ Morning~^^
(Continuing unnecessary TMI in a bright attitude) Germ morning~ I didn't brush my teeth. So it's not good morning, but germ-morning
Hello everyone, it's afternoon now
I woke up too early today
(These days, I wake up at 5 a.m. like an elderly) I tried to sleep a bit more, but I couldn’t fall at all. So now I'm going to wash up and get ready
(@Destiny: Can't you brush your teeth before you do this?) I'm going to brush my teeth and head out
When I stay sluggish like this at home I end up doing nothing at all
I just had a simple breakfast
(There are many perks of living near The Hyundai) So I'm going to go out to The Hyundai as I have something to buy
(I swear it was not a burp)
Trying to tuck in my belly haha
I'm going to wash up and get ready. It’s been so long since I did my last vlog, right?
Wow... my face is so oily right now... Anyway, I'll wash up and get ready
Putting on some make up!
Going on a date with myself today, but even when I go out alone
It’s either no washing & hat day or full make up & dress up
So today, although I'm going out to The Hyundai for a short period of time
I'm going to take myself out for a coffee and spend some time alone
One of my favorite quotes is: "The best friend you should enjoy spending time with the most is yourself"
So I really try to do it once a week!
Whether I work alone, Netflix and chill, or study (rarely), alone time is essential
And once in a while
(One of the reason I feel like crap when I’m on Instagram for too long) I just want to cut off contact with everyone and be alone
(Is when I realize "I spend so much time looking at other people's lives instead of my own") I have to take the time to focus on myself at least once a week
(I want to to chat with you after a long time~^.~) I also have some things to tell you
(I recently had Covid again ^^) After catching Covid, I did this and that
Even though it's all an excuse, but
I also had to make my advertising videos
I edit my advertising videos about 4 times, taking me at least 1 and a half months...
I edit the video, shoot it, and then repeat the process
(The satisfaction and sense of accomplishment in having promos for my subscribers for really good products) I had no time to upload things like vlogs
I should quickly apply lipstick
Even when I'm alone, like this
It feels good to walk around looking pretty, even though no one cares (hahaha)
Done! Now I'll get dressed and come back
This is what I’m wearing today, and now the earrings
Now I'm going to go out
Today, I'm going to buy a perfume for my dad
I originally planned to buy it last summer, but I forgot about it
I kept thinking I should buy it, and thought I should really get it for him for this summer
Since it came to mind now and I’m visiting my parents soon so I’m going to get it this time
So, I’m not going to wear any perfume today
Because I will need to try and test the scents
I just tied my hair in a half-updo
I’m all ready
It's been a really long time since I filmed a vlog, I really wanted to talk
It's really nothing special, like really it's nothing big
But I really wanted to share this
Like when you catch up with a friend you haven’t met for a long time
After uploading the breakup video, I keep receiving a lot of DMs
To be honest, among the DMs I receive from my Destiny these days,
The majority of DMs seem to be about my breakups
Like how am I doing these days? Because I've been going through a hard time
And wondering if I'll be okay as time goes by
I'm so grateful for your kind words like, that even a bright person like me
who looks attractive enough to you,
at the fact also went through a breakup, some said that in a way it was comforting for you guys
I, of course, like to read such comments
But after a few month of uploading that video, we went back together
Immediately updating videos on YouTube is like..
to that person and to all of you
For example, I met this person, I got back together again with him
Updating videos like that, even though it could be good for views
It seems like it wasn't being considerate at all
We broke up again after less than a year after getting back together
Actually, I wanted to share about this too, but
I was in a clear mindset that I didn't have any particular emotions to share with you guys
I think this is the best way to convey my thought in the simplest and clearest way
In fact, I didn't have much distress to share
pretending I was depressed
I just handled it well alone and got myself together
I focused only on the facts of the situation
(The first breakup was hard because I couldn't accept the reality) and accepted the facts quickly
So, I quickly accepted it was "actually really over"
So I really didn't have any emotions to share, and that's it
Actually, I didn't even shed a single tear
(Of course, I'm so grateful for all the good experiences and memories that person has given me) And that was why I didn't mention it
But the reason why I'm sharing this with you is that
After watching that video, some still ask if we're still in contact
Or if I'm doing okay
But to reply them individually saying 'I met him again but we broke up again'
seemed a bit weird
But it's also weird to say thing like nothing happened after that
So I decided to talk about it
naturally after some time has passed
And the reason why I'm so okay is because
(When we got back together I was trying to focus on fixing the problems rather than taking the emotional approach) I think I tried my best. And the reason I didn't tell you guys right after
(At that time, I wanted to get back with him so I would search related videos on YouTube lol) getting back together was maybe because
I had no confidence in that relationship
We did got back together, but it wasn't easy to have confidence
(Every relationship is not one-sided) in our relationship, also it's not something you can do alone
So it was just a good experience and a good time that has passed by now
Honestly, I don't remember much
(It's difficult to accept the breakup, but after that, I erase everything) It feels like I erase my memories intentionally
So I'm just doing well on my own for now
And I'm making efforts to meet some good people
And what I realize again is that there are so many amazing people
with great personality and there were also people who were too good for me as well
And there are many cases where there is no chemistry or where I don't feel attracted
Or where both parties don't feel attracted to one another
So I realized again that it's such a miracle to have the same feelings for each other
at the same time
This is, it's too big~ I mean, this is XS, but it's just too big here!
(*It's not from America, but Spain) I guess it's because it's from America. If it was from Korea, it'd be okay? right?
I will show you my OOTD and then go out to buy my dad's perfume
Anyway, right now I have someone...
(Suddenly I'm being all shy lol) whom I have some feelings
towards to
(Since I gave it all in my last relationship, I'm quite exhausted) To pour out my heart like crazy and talk about the future
When really nobody really knows and I'm just kind of over it
So right now I want to focus fully on my life
and be the center of my life
In any relationship, not just lovers
I'm getting so serious now and if that happens I'm going to be talking forever
Not just with lovers but even with friends or any kind of relationship
I should be the center so that I can hold my ground
And if I can't, it gets really hard
And some Destiny sent me a lot of DMs
about their struggles with breakups
Of course, I understand them, I fully understand how you feel
But even though you were in a great relationship a sudden breakup can happen
and if that happens your partner is suddenly out of your life
Then it feels like that person has left and abandoned you
Then that person's opportunity cost suddenly goes up like crazy for you
But you need to understand your value more than anyone
Losing that person should never lessen your value
You are precious as you are and you are valuable
And yes, you might feel sad about losing that person because that person
was such a great person to you and obviously that's why you dated that person in the first place
But still you shouldn't lower your own value
And if you don't appreciate your own value, who will?
I think your own values is made according to your own thoughts
And yes, of course, you should look back at your previous relationships
and should objectively look at all your flaws and work on improving them
I know that if your partner suddenly leaves unilaterally
it feels like you just lost someone really special
You shouldn't let yourself be in such a mental state like that
You need to center yourself
I just talked for so long!
Anyways that was the update, everyone. Now I'm going out to The Hyundai
Arrived at The Hyundai! It's really hot~
As soon as I enter the 1st floor, I see Burberry's summer-themed popup
I have already decided which perfume to buy for my dad!
There are three bottles of Bleu de Chanel, and this is the one, Eau de Perfume
This one has a scent that suits winter, and this one goes well with summer
So I'm going to give it as a gift to my dad
I also bought a diffuser from Acqua di Parma!
Since it was time for my appointment I'm leaving with these gifts!
Thank you so so much for watching today's video<3