0 00:00:01.625 --> 00:00:02.475 (Smug smile) 1 00:00:05.875 --> 00:00:08.275 No matter how much I try to avoid upsetting situations, they come without notice 2 00:00:14.425 --> 00:00:17.125 My sister and I swore that we would never go back to Switzerland or Paris, but here I am;; 3 00:00:17.125 --> 00:00:21.375 On my way to meet a friend! 4 00:00:21.375 --> 00:00:24.375 I have already decided which perfume to buy for my dad! 5 00:00:27.825 --> 00:00:29.375 I can't believe it.. 6 00:00:33.925 --> 00:00:37.625 (Pose that no one asked) 7 00:00:39.125 --> 00:00:40.575 Germ morning~ 8 00:00:40.575 --> 00:00:42.375 (Smug smile) 9 00:00:42.625 --> 00:00:44.075 I just got up 10 00:00:44.075 --> 00:00:45.475 Today is the weekend 11 00:00:45.475 --> 00:00:46.725 Today I’m incredibly.. 12 00:00:48.276 --> 00:00:49.226 Swollen hehe~ 13 00:00:49.226 --> 00:00:51.576 I have the hungover swollen face right now 14 00:00:51.576 --> 00:00:56.426 Gosh.. It's already around 1 o'clock now~ 15 00:00:56.426 --> 00:01:01.926 I drank yesterday and the day before yesterday, 3 days ago 16 00:01:01.926 --> 00:01:06.476 (@Dad: Call me) Yes, I drank a lot. Well, when I say a lot 17 00:01:06.476 --> 00:01:09.776 I drank around two glasses of wine and got drunk 18 00:01:09.776 --> 00:01:11.526 I have a really bad hangover right now 19 00:01:13.026 --> 00:01:14.176 I just can't wash my hair today 20 00:01:14.176 --> 00:01:16.476 (@Destiny: When do you ever wash your hair?) I’m so hungover there is no way I’m going to wash my hair 21 00:01:16.476 --> 00:01:19.676 But the reason I put on makeup is because I ordered ramen now 22 00:01:19.676 --> 00:01:20.926 (Salivating) 23 00:01:20.926 --> 00:01:25.876 I got ready while waiting for my food because seriously when I'm at home, 24 00:01:25.876 --> 00:01:28.226 You see this is why I don't like alcohol as much 25 00:01:28.226 --> 00:01:30.176 It's so much harder the next day 26 00:01:30.176 --> 00:01:32.126 Hmm~ And that’s not good 27 00:01:32.126 --> 00:01:36.676 And because I really have to get my stuff done today 28 00:01:36.676 --> 00:01:39.726 (It got cut while I was trying to say 'I'm not even human") If I don't do it now, I'm not even... 29 00:01:46.226 --> 00:01:49.826 She pretty~ She really pretty~ 30 00:01:50.376 --> 00:01:52.226 Let me pour the broth 31 00:01:52.226 --> 00:01:55.276 I came to do pilates~ 32 00:02:00.576 --> 00:02:05.826 After class, the instructor told me to do more stretching, so that's what I'm doing 33 00:02:07.576 --> 00:02:12.826 Working at home not exercising had me gained weight so quickly 34 00:02:13.726 --> 00:02:18.976 I’m on my way to get the Kardashian’s butts and thighs 35 00:02:20.976 --> 00:02:26.227 Just love how I can clear my mind when I do Pilates~ 36 00:02:29.077 --> 00:02:34.327 Trying to do some ab exercises somehow..haha 37 00:02:50.677 --> 00:02:53.627 I came to get my nails done~ 38 00:02:55.927 --> 00:02:58.727 The gel nail colors here are so pretty..~! 39 00:02:58.877 --> 00:03:02.177 Actually, this day wasn't the best day... 40 00:03:02.177 --> 00:03:04.527 (I want to talk quietly, so I reduced the font size..haha) 41 00:03:04.527 --> 00:03:10.177 So, as soon as I arrived at the nail shop, my spot was the only area that was so depressing...hahaha 42 00:03:10.177 --> 00:03:16.377 No matter how much I try to avoid upsetting situations, they come without notice 43 00:03:16.377 --> 00:03:22.077 Acting like I have hay fever and wiping away my tears.. 44 00:03:22.077 --> 00:03:27.077 HAHAHAHAHA 45 00:03:27.077 --> 00:03:32.427 The nails turned out really pretty though 46 00:03:32.427 --> 00:03:37.877 And the weather is so nice~ lol God damn it! 47 00:03:37.877 --> 00:03:44.177 This vlog covers content from a few months ago to the recent past, so there's a long gap 48 00:03:44.177 --> 00:03:48.377 The things that made me sad at that time don't seem like a big deal now!! 49 00:03:48.377 --> 00:03:51.077 I was just about to pop(?) open my packages~ 50 00:03:51.077 --> 00:03:55.027 (Isoi has been taking care of me since our collab 3 years ago) Isoi sent me these gifts again 51 00:03:55.027 --> 00:04:00.228 I get gifts from brands thanks to my Destiny who watches my videos <3 52 00:04:00.228 --> 00:04:04.378 Following the lip balm I received last time, I also got another gift from Tocobo! 53 00:04:04.378 --> 00:04:10.228 (The Tocobo tone-up sunscreen is crazy!... It became my fav (Bought it with my own money) I've been really enjoying the lip balm they sent me last time. Let me open this one as well 54 00:04:10.228 --> 00:04:14.678 With the Godiva I got as a gift and this Organacell 55 00:04:14.678 --> 00:04:19.278 Oganacell peptide cream is a perfect recovery cream for skin problems! (Been buying it with my own money for some years since receiving it as a gift from the brand) 56 00:04:19.278 --> 00:04:24.328 Came to the district office as soon as I got up~ 57 00:04:24.328 --> 00:04:29.728 Following the emergency passport issuance last time, I came to get my passport reissued! 58 00:04:29.728 --> 00:04:34.228 For our next family trip, we're planning to go to Switzerland and Paris 59 00:04:34.228 --> 00:04:38.128 My sister and I swore that we would never go back to Switzerland or Paris, but here I am;; 60 00:04:38.128 --> 00:04:44.978 It came out a week earlier than the scheduled date! 61 00:04:44.978 --> 00:04:50.128 Can pick it up on behalf of the person / Mail pickup available!! 62 00:04:50.928 --> 00:04:53.078 I got my passport 63 00:04:53.778 --> 00:04:55.928 I'm feeling so tired because I drank too much yesterday 64 00:04:55.928 --> 00:04:59.328 HAHAHAHA I'm dying here~ 65 00:04:59.628 --> 00:05:04.678 When you're getting your passport reissued, you must bring the old one with you 66 00:05:05.428 --> 00:05:11.128 On my way to meet a friend! 67 00:05:11.128 --> 00:05:18.228 Just going to have a light beer with my friend :) Yeah I'm sure~ 68 00:05:18.228 --> 00:05:24.328 On my way to Mullae!! 69 00:05:28.428 --> 00:05:33.679 Oh my my hun, you were using KE(Kieun) card? 70 00:05:33.679 --> 00:05:39.179 Second round baby hehe 71 00:05:39.179 --> 00:05:47.279 Omg my obsessive fan~~XD 72 00:05:47.279 --> 00:05:56.379 I'm about to sleep, but how cute is my Kiwi :D 73 00:06:00.779 --> 00:06:04.879 This is... the orthopedic office... 74 00:06:04.879 --> 00:06:10.429 I skipped lunch and came to see an orthopedist 75 00:06:10.429 --> 00:06:16.829 Now I'm unable to bend my back to wash my hair... 76 00:06:16.829 --> 00:06:23.329 My tutor, who's an orthopedist, told me to take painkillers if my back hurts 77 00:06:23.329 --> 00:06:25.529 and told me that it's good in I take it consistently so I came to just get some pills.. 78 00:06:25.529 --> 00:06:31.129 But I got an X-ray and was diagnosed with herniated disk... (super shocked..) 79 00:06:31.129 --> 00:06:37.879 When I sit for more than 20 min at work, it hurts so much that I feel like screaming. So I head to the restroom if that happens... 80 00:06:43.629 --> 00:06:48.779 The doctor said that this is 'severe pain caused by a herniated disk'.. 81 00:06:48.779 --> 00:06:55.279 After a huge shock from seeing the results, I'm now receiving physical therapy...HAHAHAHA 82 00:06:55.279 --> 00:06:59.329 I can't believe it... 83 00:06:59.329 --> 00:07:05.829 And some other treatment... 84 00:07:05.829 --> 00:07:13.880 I was in so much pain that I wonder 'what more pain is there, if this wasn't a herniated disc..?' 85 00:07:16.030 --> 00:07:17.830 Recently, I.. 86 00:07:17.830 --> 00:07:23.730 (Even at this time trying to explain the situation hehe) My back hurt badly, but the pain was not just like 87 00:07:23.730 --> 00:07:25.030 'wow, my back hurts' 88 00:07:26.330 --> 00:07:32.530 But it was like, I screamed in pain after sitting more than 5 minutes 89 00:07:33.580 --> 00:07:37.930 It hurt a lot even when lying down or when I'm sitting 90 00:07:38.130 --> 00:07:44.630 (I wish I had gone to the hospital earlier, not minding the work...) It really hurt a lot, so I'm quite shocked right now 91 00:07:44.630 --> 00:07:51.880 (It got worse when I sat for like 10 to 12 hrs for work at the beginning of the year) I endured it for almost 6 months thinking it wouldn't be the herniated disk 92 00:07:51.880 --> 00:07:57.930 The doctor told me to stop all the exercises, including Pilates 93 00:07:58.330 --> 00:08:03.680 It's too shocking, so I just canceled Pilates class for this week 94 00:08:03.880 --> 00:08:10.630 There's an airwrap in the changing room?! Is this some sort of employee benefit for this orthopedic clinic? 95 00:08:10.630 --> 00:08:16.630 Sometimes, when it's too intense, I take a taxi to commute to work... 96 00:08:16.780 --> 00:08:19.780 Germ~ Morning~^^ 97 00:08:19.780 --> 00:08:26.630 (Continuing unnecessary TMI in a bright attitude) Germ morning~ I didn't brush my teeth. So it's not good morning, but germ-morning 98 00:08:26.630 --> 00:08:31.180 Hello everyone, it's afternoon now 99 00:08:32.930 --> 00:08:34.530 I woke up too early today 100 00:08:34.530 --> 00:08:40.480 (These days, I wake up at 5 a.m. like an elderly) I tried to sleep a bit more, but I couldn’t fall at all. So now I'm going to wash up and get ready 101 00:08:41.231 --> 00:08:44.231 (@Destiny: Can't you brush your teeth before you do this?) I'm going to brush my teeth and head out 102 00:08:44.231 --> 00:08:47.931 When I stay sluggish like this at home I end up doing nothing at all 103 00:08:49.231 --> 00:08:50.381 I just had a simple breakfast 104 00:08:50.381 --> 00:08:56.931 (There are many perks of living near The Hyundai) So I'm going to go out to The Hyundai as I have something to buy 105 00:08:58.131 --> 00:08:58.981 (I swear it was not a burp) 106 00:09:00.531 --> 00:09:02.331 Trying to tuck in my belly haha 107 00:09:02.331 --> 00:09:07.631 I'm going to wash up and get ready. It’s been so long since I did my last vlog, right? 108 00:09:07.631 --> 00:09:15.131 Wow... my face is so oily right now... Anyway, I'll wash up and get ready 109 00:09:15.131 --> 00:09:16.931 Putting on some make up! 110 00:09:21.831 --> 00:09:26.681 Going on a date with myself today, but even when I go out alone 111 00:09:27.431 --> 00:09:37.081 It’s either no washing & hat day or full make up & dress up 112 00:09:37.831 --> 00:09:40.631 So today, although I'm going out to The Hyundai for a short period of time 113 00:09:41.231 --> 00:09:46.781 I'm going to take myself out for a coffee and spend some time alone 114 00:09:46.781 --> 00:09:54.281 One of my favorite quotes is: "The best friend you should enjoy spending time with the most is yourself" 115 00:09:54.281 --> 00:09:56.381 So I really try to do it once a week! 116 00:09:56.381 --> 00:10:03.581 Whether I work alone, Netflix and chill, or study (rarely), alone time is essential 117 00:10:03.581 --> 00:10:04.631 And once in a while 118 00:10:04.631 --> 00:10:10.631 (One of the reason I feel like crap when I’m on Instagram for too long) I just want to cut off contact with everyone and be alone 119 00:10:10.631 --> 00:10:16.482 (Is when I realize "I spend so much time looking at other people's lives instead of my own") I have to take the time to focus on myself at least once a week 120 00:10:16.482 --> 00:10:20.982 (I want to to chat with you after a long time~^.~) I also have some things to tell you 121 00:10:20.982 --> 00:10:23.632 (I recently had Covid again ^^) After catching Covid, I did this and that 122 00:10:23.632 --> 00:10:24.780 Even though it's all an excuse, but 123 00:10:25.282 --> 00:10:26.382 I also had to make my advertising videos 124 00:10:26.382 --> 00:10:35.932 I edit my advertising videos about 4 times, taking me at least 1 and a half months... 125 00:10:35.932 --> 00:10:38.732 I edit the video, shoot it, and then repeat the process 126 00:10:38.732 --> 00:10:43.482 (The satisfaction and sense of accomplishment in having promos for my subscribers for really good products) I had no time to upload things like vlogs 127 00:10:43.482 --> 00:10:47.182 I should quickly apply lipstick 128 00:10:49.032 --> 00:10:50.732 Even when I'm alone, like this 129 00:10:52.682 --> 00:10:56.232 It feels good to walk around looking pretty, even though no one cares (hahaha) 130 00:11:01.932 --> 00:11:04.232 Done! Now I'll get dressed and come back 131 00:11:05.632 --> 00:11:09.282 This is what I’m wearing today, and now the earrings 132 00:11:12.032 --> 00:11:13.832 Now I'm going to go out 133 00:11:14.632 --> 00:11:16.882 Today, I'm going to buy a perfume for my dad 134 00:11:16.882 --> 00:11:21.082 I originally planned to buy it last summer, but I forgot about it 135 00:11:23.432 --> 00:11:30.082 I kept thinking I should buy it, and thought I should really get it for him for this summer 136 00:11:30.682 --> 00:11:35.782 Since it came to mind now and I’m visiting my parents soon so I’m going to get it this time 137 00:11:37.082 --> 00:11:39.332 So, I’m not going to wear any perfume today 138 00:11:39.332 --> 00:11:42.582 Because I will need to try and test the scents 139 00:11:42.582 --> 00:11:46.382 I just tied my hair in a half-updo 140 00:11:47.682 --> 00:11:49.032 I’m all ready 141 00:11:51.933 --> 00:11:56.633 It's been a really long time since I filmed a vlog, I really wanted to talk 142 00:11:59.533 --> 00:12:03.283 It's really nothing special, like really it's nothing big 143 00:12:04.133 --> 00:12:05.633 But I really wanted to share this 144 00:12:05.633 --> 00:12:08.133 Like when you catch up with a friend you haven’t met for a long time 145 00:12:10.033 --> 00:12:16.733 After uploading the breakup video, I keep receiving a lot of DMs 146 00:12:16.733 --> 00:12:21.483 To be honest, among the DMs I receive from my Destiny these days, 147 00:12:21.483 --> 00:12:25.383 The majority of DMs seem to be about my breakups 148 00:12:25.383 --> 00:12:28.483 Like how am I doing these days? Because I've been going through a hard time 149 00:12:28.483 --> 00:12:32.433 And wondering if I'll be okay as time goes by 150 00:12:33.233 --> 00:12:38.733 I'm so grateful for your kind words like, that even a bright person like me 151 00:12:39.933 --> 00:12:42.783 who looks attractive enough to you, 152 00:12:42.783 --> 00:12:47.183 at the fact also went through a breakup, some said that in a way it was comforting for you guys 153 00:12:47.183 --> 00:12:49.233 I, of course, like to read such comments 154 00:12:49.233 --> 00:12:54.762 But after a few month of uploading that video, we went back together 155 00:12:55.883 --> 00:12:59.583 Immediately updating videos on YouTube is like.. 156 00:13:01.333 --> 00:13:03.883 to that person and to all of you 157 00:13:03.883 --> 00:13:07.033 For example, I met this person, I got back together again with him 158 00:13:07.033 --> 00:13:11.683 Updating videos like that, even though it could be good for views 159 00:13:12.233 --> 00:13:14.783 It seems like it wasn't being considerate at all 160 00:13:14.783 --> 00:13:19.933 We broke up again after less than a year after getting back together 161 00:13:20.283 --> 00:13:24.283 Actually, I wanted to share about this too, but 162 00:13:24.933 --> 00:13:31.284 I was in a clear mindset that I didn't have any particular emotions to share with you guys 163 00:13:31.284 --> 00:13:38.634 I think this is the best way to convey my thought in the simplest and clearest way 164 00:13:42.434 --> 00:13:46.484 In fact, I didn't have much distress to share 165 00:13:46.484 --> 00:13:48.584 pretending I was depressed 166 00:13:48.584 --> 00:13:51.334 I just handled it well alone and got myself together 167 00:13:51.334 --> 00:13:54.834 I focused only on the facts of the situation 168 00:13:54.834 --> 00:13:59.734 (The first breakup was hard because I couldn't accept the reality) and accepted the facts quickly 169 00:13:59.734 --> 00:14:05.634 So, I quickly accepted it was "actually really over" 170 00:14:05.634 --> 00:14:09.134 So I really didn't have any emotions to share, and that's it 171 00:14:09.134 --> 00:14:11.234 Actually, I didn't even shed a single tear 172 00:14:11.234 --> 00:14:17.584 (Of course, I'm so grateful for all the good experiences and memories that person has given me) And that was why I didn't mention it 173 00:14:17.584 --> 00:14:19.784 But the reason why I'm sharing this with you is that 174 00:14:19.784 --> 00:14:24.334 After watching that video, some still ask if we're still in contact 175 00:14:24.334 --> 00:14:27.984 Or if I'm doing okay 176 00:14:27.984 --> 00:14:32.334 But to reply them individually saying 'I met him again but we broke up again' 177 00:14:32.334 --> 00:14:36.084 seemed a bit weird 178 00:14:37.084 --> 00:14:44.484 But it's also weird to say thing like nothing happened after that 179 00:14:44.484 --> 00:14:48.784 So I decided to talk about it 180 00:14:50.034 --> 00:14:52.434 naturally after some time has passed 181 00:14:52.934 --> 00:14:55.684 And the reason why I'm so okay is because 182 00:14:55.684 --> 00:15:01.835 (When we got back together I was trying to focus on fixing the problems rather than taking the emotional approach) I think I tried my best. And the reason I didn't tell you guys right after 183 00:15:01.835 --> 00:15:05.585 (At that time, I wanted to get back with him so I would search related videos on YouTube lol) getting back together was maybe because 184 00:15:05.585 --> 00:15:09.585 I had no confidence in that relationship 185 00:15:09.585 --> 00:15:15.785 We did got back together, but it wasn't easy to have confidence 186 00:15:15.785 --> 00:15:20.935 (Every relationship is not one-sided) in our relationship, also it's not something you can do alone 187 00:15:20.935 --> 00:15:24.985 So it was just a good experience and a good time that has passed by now 188 00:15:24.985 --> 00:15:28.285 Honestly, I don't remember much 189 00:15:28.285 --> 00:15:31.335 (It's difficult to accept the breakup, but after that, I erase everything) It feels like I erase my memories intentionally 190 00:15:31.335 --> 00:15:34.385 So I'm just doing well on my own for now 191 00:15:35.035 --> 00:15:39.685 And I'm making efforts to meet some good people 192 00:15:39.685 --> 00:15:44.235 And what I realize again is that there are so many amazing people 193 00:15:44.985 --> 00:15:49.885 with great personality and there were also people who were too good for me as well 194 00:15:49.885 --> 00:15:54.335 And there are many cases where there is no chemistry or where I don't feel attracted 195 00:15:54.335 --> 00:15:56.935 Or where both parties don't feel attracted to one another 196 00:15:57.485 --> 00:16:04.435 So I realized again that it's such a miracle to have the same feelings for each other 197 00:16:04.435 --> 00:16:06.785 at the same time 198 00:16:07.485 --> 00:16:12.935 This is, it's too big~ I mean, this is XS, but it's just too big here! 199 00:16:14.085 --> 00:16:19.335 (*It's not from America, but Spain) I guess it's because it's from America. If it was from Korea, it'd be okay? right? 200 00:16:19.585 --> 00:16:24.035 I will show you my OOTD and then go out to buy my dad's perfume 201 00:16:25.635 --> 00:16:30.235 Anyway, right now I have someone... 202 00:16:30.235 --> 00:16:35.436 (Suddenly I'm being all shy lol) whom I have some feelings 203 00:16:36.136 --> 00:16:38.186 towards to 204 00:16:40.186 --> 00:16:45.386 (Since I gave it all in my last relationship, I'm quite exhausted) To pour out my heart like crazy and talk about the future 205 00:16:45.386 --> 00:16:50.336 When really nobody really knows and I'm just kind of over it 206 00:16:50.336 --> 00:16:55.336 So right now I want to focus fully on my life 207 00:16:56.436 --> 00:16:59.836 and be the center of my life 208 00:16:59.836 --> 00:17:02.386 In any relationship, not just lovers 209 00:17:02.386 --> 00:17:04.636 I'm getting so serious now and if that happens I'm going to be talking forever 210 00:17:04.636 --> 00:17:07.586 Not just with lovers but even with friends or any kind of relationship 211 00:17:07.586 --> 00:17:11.136 I should be the center so that I can hold my ground 212 00:17:11.136 --> 00:17:13.636 And if I can't, it gets really hard 213 00:17:15.686 --> 00:17:19.036 And some Destiny sent me a lot of DMs 214 00:17:19.036 --> 00:17:23.586 about their struggles with breakups 215 00:17:23.586 --> 00:17:28.736 Of course, I understand them, I fully understand how you feel 216 00:17:30.136 --> 00:17:36.186 But even though you were in a great relationship a sudden breakup can happen 217 00:17:36.186 --> 00:17:39.586 and if that happens your partner is suddenly out of your life 218 00:17:39.586 --> 00:17:43.436 Then it feels like that person has left and abandoned you 219 00:17:43.436 --> 00:17:47.086 Then that person's opportunity cost suddenly goes up like crazy for you 220 00:17:47.386 --> 00:17:51.086 But you need to understand your value more than anyone 221 00:17:51.536 --> 00:17:56.036 Losing that person should never lessen your value 222 00:17:56.036 --> 00:17:59.586 You are precious as you are and you are valuable 223 00:17:59.586 --> 00:18:03.186 And yes, you might feel sad about losing that person because that person 224 00:18:03.186 --> 00:18:07.186 was such a great person to you and obviously that's why you dated that person in the first place 225 00:18:07.186 --> 00:18:09.386 But still you shouldn't lower your own value 226 00:18:09.386 --> 00:18:11.887 And if you don't appreciate your own value, who will? 227 00:18:11.887 --> 00:18:15.887 I think your own values is made according to your own thoughts 228 00:18:15.887 --> 00:18:19.287 And yes, of course, you should look back at your previous relationships 229 00:18:19.287 --> 00:18:22.887 and should objectively look at all your flaws and work on improving them 230 00:18:23.587 --> 00:18:25.987 I know that if your partner suddenly leaves unilaterally 231 00:18:25.987 --> 00:18:30.487 it feels like you just lost someone really special 232 00:18:30.487 --> 00:18:37.137 You shouldn't let yourself be in such a mental state like that 233 00:18:37.137 --> 00:18:39.287 You need to center yourself 234 00:18:39.287 --> 00:18:40.687 I just talked for so long! 235 00:18:41.587 --> 00:18:45.287 Anyways that was the update, everyone. Now I'm going out to The Hyundai 236 00:18:45.287 --> 00:18:52.487 Arrived at The Hyundai! It's really hot~ 237 00:18:52.487 --> 00:18:58.087 As soon as I enter the 1st floor, I see Burberry's summer-themed popup 238 00:18:58.087 --> 00:19:03.737 I have already decided which perfume to buy for my dad! 239 00:19:03.737 --> 00:19:08.037 There are three bottles of Bleu de Chanel, and this is the one, Eau de Perfume 240 00:19:08.537 --> 00:19:12.687 This one has a scent that suits winter, and this one goes well with summer 241 00:19:13.037 --> 00:19:15.337 So I'm going to give it as a gift to my dad 242 00:19:18.237 --> 00:19:24.787 I also bought a diffuser from Acqua di Parma! 243 00:19:24.787 --> 00:19:29.037 Since it was time for my appointment I'm leaving with these gifts! 244 00:19:29.037 --> 00:19:32.387 Thank you so so much for watching today's video<3