My height is 162cm and my weight was at its highest point when it reached 58kg
"Hey, don't you think people with big asses look so lazy?"
"They look so stupid"
The stress that comes from the shape of my legs itself is really...
I even reached 47kg
My chest was really completely non-existent
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Hello, Gureumis!
Hello, everyone. Today, I am going to share with you The diet method that many of you, Gureumis,
have consistently requested from me for a long time
To be honest, Gureumi subscribers have been requesting this for a long time
The reason I haven't filmed it until now is
(I'm not trying to keep it a secret just for myself :() Not because I didn't want to share my diet method
But because I was being cautious about it
The diet methods I tried were generally not the typical ones
That's why I thought that if you followed my diet methods carelessly
(The video I'm making is not about claiming that my diet methods are right!) It could cause huge problems, or for people who find out about my method
"She went on a diet to that extent??"
"This is really obsessive"
(To be honest, I don't have to tell you everything, but I still wanted to tell you honestly how I lost weight) I thought some viewers might blame me for it like these
So to be honest, I was a little worried
However, when I uploaded a vlog about my nose surgery and face care routine recently
Many people were appreciated for the helpful information
(I hope this video can also be helpful to the Gureumis) So, I thought that maybe this video could also be helpful if I explain it well
So after much consideration
(Please watch this video until the end!!!) I decided to make this video
I think today's video will be really long
So today, I will divide my story into the past and present
First of all, let me tell you what my weights were in the past
(My highest weight in the past was - 162cm / 58kg) My height is 162cm and my weight was at its highest at 58kg
But even at 58kg in the past, it wasn't an well proportioned 58kg
(I was extremely overweight in my lower body) My upper body was 19 inches at the thinnest part of my waist
And my lower body was 29 inches
(stressful) Crazy, right?
That's how seriously unbalanced my body portion was
(Lowest weight at the past - 162cm / 47kg) And the most weight loss I achieved was when I was 47kg at a height of 162cm
So, I lost more than 10kg
(1st reason on why I was gaining weight) The reason why I gained weight in the first place was
(I was crazy about snacks) I really enjoyed snacking, especially eating a lot of snacks
I always stopped by the supermarket on my way back home from school
(The 3 bags of snacks were easy then...) I bought about 3 bags of snacks and when I got home, I sat down and ate all three bags
And I was working part-time at Pizza Hut
(I think I hit my peak while working at Pizza Hut) I worked at Pizza Hut for about a year and a half
they provided meals like pizza, pasta, and chicken for the employees
I kept eating these meals
(I also felt that my uniform was becoming increasingly tighter) And as a result, I gained weight very quickly
Interesting fact, Upper body didn't seem to gain much weight
(Cursed thighs that were serious from a young age) Only my lower body had gained a lot of weight. It's amazing to think about it now
So, with all that I hit my highest weight, 58kg
My friends usually advised me
"That I could look better if I lose weight in my lower parts"
I was quite stressed about that
So the term 'fat in the lower body' was
The word that reduced my sense of worth
People's meaningless words
Had great meanings to me and gave me a big stress
One day, I was waiting for a line to have lunch at cafeteria
A person waiting behind me was talking
(I know she didn't want me to hear it...) Well, I'm sure she didn't intended for me to hear that
"Hey, don't you think people with big asses look so lazy?"
"They look so stupid"
"And that's why I go on a diet"
but that's what she said
(It was when I was a junior in high school, but I still have vivid memories) Oh, I just got goosebumps. Why am I getting so emtional?
I... I also didn't want to...
(I too wanted to gain some upper body thank you very much) It's not like I purposely ate all that junk to gain it all in my thighs
I don't want big legs too I want to gain in my chest and have big boobs!
But I felt stupid when they said that
and it made me feel like some sort of a lazy human
(First Diet) I have started my diet since then
(Did running & jumping ropes for 1hr every day during my school break) I just went out and jumped ropes as well as just ran
(Only ate half of what I was eating and just drank water) And when I came back home I wouldn't eat much and just drink water
(58kg → 54~55kg) So by doing that for a month I lost around 3 to 4kg
(Still have big thighs...) But there was not much difference in my thighs
The biggest problem was my front of my thighs
The more I exercise, the more unattractive the shape of the saddlebag and the front thighs gets due to the fat
But whatever the shape was, I felt quite satisfied with my body weight and enjoyed my school life
And a month before I became twenty
I started my internship in the department store
It was...
(It was a luxury department store in Apgujeong) The department store was loved by tons of celebrities and millionaires
And in there instead of XL
And only sell very small sizes like XXS
The clothes were very small but they fit well to people around there
People there were very skinny, so during my internship there
(I wear M but they only had S) They only gave me these really small uniforms
As you can expect, because of my hip it didn't fit at all
So I had no choice but to ask for a medium size
I asked them "Can you order me at least one in a medium size?"
But instead they told me "What are you talking about it's you who have to fit into the uniform"
(I was already even wearing my pants because they didn't fit :() I was so in shock when I realised that if I wanted to work I needed to lose weight
Second Diet) And that's when I started this diet where I actually invested money on
(Herbal medication Diet(no exercise)) And that was the 'Herbal medication Diet'
I'm sure you guys have heard of it. And how that helps lose weight is
It is not the herbal medicine that helps you to lose weight
(It has an anorectic agent, and the taste was like the bark of a tree) One of the ingredients were to help block your appetite so you don't eat that much
When I went to see a doctor for a prescription
They took my weight and my whole overall body measurement
And they checked my appetite level as well
(They would prescribe the herbal meds stronger if you have a high appetite level) For example, if you have a strong appetite at level 3 out of 5
They would then prescribe herbal medication in the level of 4
So that you can suppress your appetite
And they also plan out your meals and eating that, you were bound to lose weight
It was like a sweet potato for breakfast, a normal meal but just half of the amount for lunch and for dinner, you just have 1 to 2 eggs
(If you do this, you can't help but lose weight, but it's hard to do it when you have a lot of appetites) But to be honest, even if I eat like this now, I'll be loseing weight
But the reason why that was possible was because I was taking that herbal drinks
It was suppressing my appetite so that's why it was possible
I'm sure there would be some people after hearing this so far
would say that someone like that
usually have low self-esteem
(You're right. I always had low self-esteem because of my legs...) Honestly, if you hear things like that about your appearance
Through adolescence and into adulthood?
I don't want to, but my self-esteem goes down
And as I fix the problem it was only natural for my self-esteem to increase
Of course, some might not
(I'm sure some strong-minded people wouldn't be affected but I was so hurt by it) I'm sure there are some out there where they are satisfied with their appearance
and what others say don't affect them
But I've been teased for a long time
(From elementary school students to adults, people go crazy if repeated continuously) When I was in elementary school, I was bullied because of my appearance
Even in the professional field as well so if something like that continuously affect you
(Please don't bully people) That's bound to be stressful in your daily life
(I'm 29 years old and it still gets me emotional just thinking about it..) It's bound to lower your self-esteem
Anyway, let's continue on
So I ended up paying a lot of money for the herbal medicine diet
I told you that herbal medicine diet contains ingredients that suppress your appetite
The side effect of that was
It's very... How should I say it? My mood swing were crazy
(And it wasn't like I had my highs all I was, was depressed) I don't know if it would have been better if I had some highs
but with no single moment of high, I was just constantly
feeling depressed
And when I drank it, it would make my heart pound so fast
(This can vary from person to person!) and I was getting all chills and goosebumps
So, during my internship, I really cried a lot
Of course, I cried because it was mentally exhausting
But the herbal medicine also contributed to it
(Even though I finally fit into that size small pants after losing 3kg in a month) It was so hard on me that time that I was
(I was nearly clinically depressed) thinking maybe visiting a doctor and getting it diagnosed
Anyway, that was that side effect
And then I become an adult
(2nd reason on why I was gaining weight) What do you have when you become an adult?
Alcohol!
(Alcohol, you punk...) After drinking, I started to gain weight in areas I didn't gain
(Drinking caused weight gain on my lower belly, armpit area, and gave me love handles) You see no matter what I did I never gained weight on my upper areas
And the fat on the face
(More than anything, the face fat was just crazy) Overall, I gained weight a lot
So I became 58kg again
(demons awakened in 58kg) And I think it really got to me when I became 58 that
I won't go get any heavier
(Third Diet) So, as I said before
(Botox - you must do this together with dieting) It was around this time that I started injecting Botox
(After work I went for an hour spinning class) At that time I was serious about dieting and I worked out really hard
(Same food but reduce to 2/3 of it) I tried my best to not to eat. It wasn’t easy but I put in a lot of effort
(As I couldn’t cut on alcohol consumption it took quite a long time) I went down to 55kg and then
Something happens to me…
At that time I was working and I had a boyfriend
And I was talking to my boyfriend during our date
and my boyfriend kept looking at my legs
(“Whatcha lookin at dude”) I was like “Why? Why are you looking at them? Why are you looking at my legs?”
(I still can’t believe it thinking about it now) And then you know what he said? Sigh…
(My tears are not worth crying for you jerk) Oh I’m not crying I just have a runny nose
What my boyfriend said to me was
He was like “Hey your legs looks like drumsticks”
(You better watch your back...) How have you been?? Hey you were super fat too LOL
That day I went back home and cried so much
(I lost a lot of weight and was still losing weight so I thought it was gonna be okay but it wasn’t) My insecurities with my body all came back
So what I decided then was
(Fourth diet) It was the second time that I spent money on dieting
I can’t really say that it was a diet
At that time I went for liposuction
(Actually I really thought about it a lot for many years previously) I did so many dieting before I did liposuction
And I had so much stress doing it
(I also thought that my legs looked like chicken drumsticks) I couldn’t resolve the stress I got from the leg shape that I had
And even if I lost so much weight people were still like
“Ahreum you got some strong legs~"
“You could give birth easily?”
“You butt is as big as a mountain?”
When I heard these things?
(Please stop!!!) I was getting mad
So what I want to say is that
(Don’t ever talk bad about someone’s outward appearance) I don't want people to talk badly about someone who is going through some difficulties about their body and is working
out and controlling what they are eating
(I really worked hard shedding blood tears everyday) I'm sure they are trying their best right now
But it’s so hard to lose weight what can we do
(Angry out of a sudden) And did my big ass make your life harder? Seriously then why would you say things like that?!
Well now if I think about what my friend said to be at the cafeteria and my then boyfriend
(Thank you!^^) I actually appreciate them as they made me who I am now
(But let’s never see each other again^^…) But they sure wasn't the a good friend nor boyfriend
So I looked for a lot of clinics for liposuction
And even if its expensive I should do it at a famous place
(I searched like on Gangnam Unnie and Barbietox, Naver and etc before I went to bed) Anyways I went to the clinic in Apgujeong and when for consultation there
And the manager there was like
“Ahreum when I look at your top body you look around 40kgish”
And that manager was super skinny
(That manager did a full body liposusction there) And told me that she also did liposuction
So I looked it up a lot and decided to get it done at the clinic
I did my blood test and then I got undressed entirely
They give disposable underwear and then I go to the operation room
(It feels like those operation room from horror movies… I was super scared) The operation room was very huge and cold
Red disinfectant? They sprayed it all over my body
(That's when it really hit me!) It was freezing
(I felt bad thinking about my parents) I was thinking do I really need to go this far and was getting all teary
I mean going there alone didn't help
Like other patients were there with their mom or like friends
anyways, I lied on the bed after getting sanitized
anaesthesiologist came in and
held my hand and put respirator on me
when that person's hand got close to my face
(At that moment the stink of cigarettes) Oh the smell of cigarettes was so bad in their hand
(Is this right?) I still don't know if that was okay
I stopped choking up and kind of snap out of it
(I Fell asleep while I was thinking I would be in trouble if I don't stay awake) I was thinking I really gotta keep myself on my toe
how could you not wash your hands and come in to the surgery?
anyways, I woke up from anesthesia
(It was the worst anesthesia in my life) My throat was killing me, felt nauseous and
needed to go to the bathroom really bad
I fainted two times in my life and both of them were
when I had liposuction surgery
I wanted to go to the bathroom really bad when I woke up in the recovery center
I think I said it to the nurses there, "I need to go to the bathroom"
while they were helping me walk
(because of the low blood pressure) I fainted
second time happened when I came back home
(my family still doesn't know I had the surgery) I stayed in bed to keep it to myself
when nobody was home, I walked over to the kitchen for water
(When I opened my eyes I were lying on the kitchen floor) and I fainted at the kitchen, I never fainted like that before
so I thought liposuction is such a risky surgery
I wondered how straining could it be that made me faint
And the areas I got the procedure done was
my thighs, the front area of my thigh, the saddlebags (I can't remember it's so long..)
you know how I went in alone
It took 4hours from Apgujeong to Incheon
we normally walk like this but after the surgery,
(I swear I wasn't far off from walking like a turtle) you need to hold onto something in order to walk
(If I think about it now it's just crazy how I did that) even worse, I took public transportation
(spent all on the surgery) With no money I couldn't take a cab
so, I came home taking 4-5hours
I stayed in bed for about a week wearing compression suit
(the suit itself was expensive too) I had customized my own suit at the place
I didn't have any pain
but it hurt whenever using the bathroom
you know, I have to pull down the suit and sit on the toilet
(it seems like it's ripping my skin off) by just pulling it down, I felt my skin peeling off
It was so painful
It still creeps me out
No pains until you have to take the suit off
I didn't wanted to drink anything because then, I'd have to use the bathroom
there's some sort of solution in the legs
(Weighted more after the surgery but my legs looked more balanced) that makes your leg look puffy and weigh more than before
(The swelling then moved down to my feet making it harder to wear shoes) But after about 2 months, swelling subsides
and then you could see the result
If anyone asks what king of procedure or surgeries I liked the best
I would without a single hesitation that it was my liposuction
I'm overly satisfied with the result
after the surgery, you'll get prescribed medicine
it's an appetite suppressant in this small bottle
(Wow...it doesn't compare to that herbal drink) I heard it's very strong appetite suppressant
I was told to take one a day for a month
as I said I've been on herbal medication diet
(Yes the difference was there for appetite suppressant but wow emotionally it was different too) but I swear the difference is massive
If you say, you can eat half bowl of rice when taking herbal medication,
(being on an appetite suppressant makes you full from just the smell of the food) when taking the appetite suppressant, after taking one-two bite, you'll feel nauseous
I didn't think about eating nor did I see any reason to
So after liposuction plus taking that appetite suppressant
(I heard that I looked like a skeleton around that time) I weighed only 47kg and my chest was so flat
So when I would sit on a chair like this
(It didn't feel that bad when I could feel my butt bone saying hi to the chair) it would hurt because my butt bone would hit on the chair, you see I was really skinny
I don't think I would ever go back to being that skinny
As I said it's much stronger than the herbal medication,
I also had severe mood swings
(I was going through some intense mood swings) I had really bad ups and downs
(Unless it was prescribed to you from a doctor) don't take this as it's so dangerous
So for me
(I just threw it in the trash) I stopped taking it because it was just not right
I was told to take it for a month
(I threw it away after taking it for 2 weeks and remember struggling with an eating disorder for a while) but only took it for about two weeks and by then you still don't want to eat without the meds
(Whatever I ate I would vomit all out, it was just crazy) and even when I go out for drink I would end up puking it all up
I don't think I've ever told you guys about side effects
there are side effects
(Wearing my swimwear) inner thigh looks bumpy
so you can tell I got liposuction whenever I wear a bikini
secondly, the part where I had incision, the panty line
(Apparently that's where usually the incisions are made) it was somewhere around two to four cuts
you get stitches over the incision and then when it's time you get your stitches out
and I don't know if they didn't do it properly for one side but it left a scar
it looks like I still have the stitches under the skin
so yeah those are some of the side effects
at that time I also got braces
(Decided to get my braces as I couldn't eat much anyway because of the meds) Because I got my braces 6 months after I had the surgery
it was like the whole all in one pain resulting into losing all my fat in my face
(I don't even remember how I much weighed then) I looked so skinny just like a skeleton, no matter what I ate I just wouldn't gain anything
(Because it was so opposite to the life I was living I was really enjoying myself) So I was taking an advantage of it by drinking and eating whatever
because no matter what I wasn't gaining but
(3rd reason on why I was gaining weight) I found out what's the worst food to eat when on a diet, tteokbboki!
(I think Tteokbboki is like no.1 food that you'll make you gain weight) I was suddenly really into tteokbboki so I would have it like 3 times a week
and suddenly
(Before tteokbboki / After tteokbboki) my legs started to go back to how it was before
also started gaining weight again
(A miracle food that turns skinny face into chubby face) my face also started to get all chubby
(Have tteokbboki on a quarterly basis) Like tteokbboki was no joke
So, I kept maintaining from 49kg to 50kg like that
And now my legs are slim and my body is similar to others
I wanted to gain elasticity
So what I did since then
(Fifth Diet) I started diet boxing
(I strongly recommend it! I kept going on diet boxing and later changed to gym!) I think I lived a strong and healthy life when I worked out
As you can see from the picture
(When I was working out / Recently ^^..) The hips now and the hips then are so different
(I made up my mind to start working out again hahaha...) Isn't it so different, guys?
The habit I got after liposuction was to weigh myself every morning
(I was scared that I would go back to the old days) I invested so much money on it so
(How to keep this up) I thought I should keep this up
If I was about to go over 51kg, I went on a diet and work out
I really liked the dishes made with chicken breast
Chicken breast salad, chicken breast pasta, and wraps with chicken breast
(There are so many dieter vlogs, so I think it was good to follow in various ways hahaha) Since it's on YouTube a lot these days, so than mine
I think other people's videos will be more helpful
(I'm trying to change it to a healthier diet because I'm gaining weight again these days!) By eating alternative foods
I was able to lose weight and maintaining it without difficulty
So today I answered the most requested questions by Gureumis
On ways how I lost my weight
My goal is to taking my body portraits before I turn 30
(I want to try it once by exercising and dieting in a healthy way hahaha) By a well-toned body rather than a completely skinny body
I want to cherish the end of my 20s, so I'm trying to prepare it
I'm not sure if I'll succeed
But if I do get myself ready for the photo shoots
I'll film a VLOG with how to exercise and what I eat!
(I'm very worried while editing today's video) I don't know how this video comforted and helped people with big legs and butt
(I hope it was a video that helped you..) But I hope it's an informative video though
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See you in the next video-! Bye, everyone!